"You've just qualified for a new protocol at the Dana Farber Cancer Institute in Boston where they're using autologous bone-marrow transplant as the first-line therapy for lymphoma. And they expect it to be curative. And you fit the protocol." It was magical. I couldn't believe it. It was a gift from heaven.
Being treated with an autologous bone-marrow transplant is like being beaten up to the point where you almost die. So I was holding on. There I was, in the bed, white, bald, skeleton-like, with these two tubes sticking out of my chest. Standing up in the bed with my head thrown back, trying anything that I could not to vomit. When in walked the senior nurse, and she had a couple of words for me that have stuck with me.
She said, "Dr. Stabler, you must work with the therapy, not again it. You're trying to block it. Let yourself go."
I lay down, turned to one side and went on with the therapy and was severely sick. But that was a necessary thing at that point in time. It was a learning moment. Sometimes you have to let go.
[STABLER GOES TO THE DOCTOR]
LEE BERKOWITZ, MD: How are you?
BRIAN STABLER, PhD: Great.
LEE BERKOWITZ, MD: Nice to see you.
BRIAN STABLER, PhD: Good to see you again.
LEE BERKOWITZ, MD: How have you been doing?
BRIAN STABLER, PhD: Good.
LEE BERKOWITZ, MD: You look terrific.
BRIAN STABLER, PhD: Thanks.